As I crossed off the last item on my shopping list, I felt a sigh of relief...yet regret. For months, I planned, organized and shopped for another Christmas season. My goal is to have all shopping done by November 30. That did not happen this year. Another goal is to have all Christmas cards addressed and sent by December 1. That hasn't happened, either. In my driven and systematic nature, I sometimes struggle with missing set goals on time. When they are not met with efficiency and punctuality, I question my abilities and value. Then I remember....
The most amazing plan was God designing, creating and loving...us. Yet ever since time began, we have made countless mistakes. We do what He says not to do. We don't do what He says to do. We ignore His plan and seek our own. We fall and wonder where He is in the middle of our mess. I often imagine that He watches me and shakes His head from side to side wondering "What was I thinking?"
But that's not how a parent truly feels. I have been a child...a teenager...a young adult...and am now a parent of two adult children. Although I didn't always obey my parents as a child, they somehow managed to still love me. As I have watched our children learn from their decisions, my love never changed for them, either.
When the One Who created me still loves me after all my mistakes, including missed goals...there is reason to believe that He still has purpose, value and a plan for my life, too. He knew my goals would not always be realized on time. He knew I would often make a mess of my life. He knew I would be driven to do more yet be disappointed when I accomplish less. But the one thing He wants me to remember...is that He loves me...anyway.
In this season of lists, lessons, and the journey of life, may I never lose sight of love...His Love...that makes all the difference. I am amazed. I am grateful. I am never alone.<3~thl
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