Thursday, July 31, 2014

Remaining...

In a world of change,
Your love remains.
In a world of pain,
Your hope remains.
In a world of confusion,
Your peace remains.
In a world of uncertainty,
Your Presence remains.
Thank You, God, for remaining the same,
yesterday, today, tomorrow and forever.♥~thl

"'I am the Alpha and the Omega,' says the Lord God, 'Who is, and Who was, and Who is to come, the Almighty.'"  Revelation 1:  8

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Who, what, where, when, how and why...

Dear God~Thank You for knowing...
who You created me to be,
what purpose You have for my life,
where You will lead me now and later,
when Your plans for me will unfold,
how You will make it all work for good and
why You still love me when I mess up so often.
Thank You, God, for loving me...anyway.♥~thl

"'For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways,' declares the Lord.  'As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts.'"  Isaiah 55: 8>9

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Reason to sing...

Seriously...I don't mind washing dishes, doing laundry, cooking, sweeping, ironing or shopping.  But I do not enjoy scrubbing the tub.  I don't mind scubbing the sink or anything else in the bathroom.  It's just that the tub is...well...my least favorite chore.  :) 

Recently, our daughter and I were discussing different household duties and "the one" we dread most.  I shared that I discovered a way to get through dreaded chores when I was a teenager.  Raised in a family of seven, with four brothers and no sisters, one of my chores was cleaning the kitchen and washing dishes.  That became quite a challenge for seven people, three times a day, if everyone was home.  It included dishes, glassware, silverware and cookware.  It was overwhelming to see stacks to wash, dry and put away. Sometimes it seemed I spent more time at the kitchen sink than anywhere else in the house. 

Yet a minor change in the approach greatly altered my perspective.  After receiving a stereo one Christmas, I realized that playing music while I cleaned the kitchen made the task more enjoyable and less dreaded.  In fact, it became "my time" to play classical music...or rock and roll music, depending on my preference at the moment.  The dreaded time became a time of learning, singing, "air microphone" and "air piano" opportunities.

Isaiah 49: 13 says:
"Shout for joy, O heavens; rejoice, O earth; burst into song, O mountains!  For the Lord comforts His people and will have compassion on His afflicted ones."

I began thinking about this verse recently.  Since my kitchen/laundry/babysitting/house-cleaning teenage years, I have also learned to sing, play, write, compose and direct through various seasons of life's journey.  What a joy to tranform what's on my heart into words and music!  It certainly influences my perspective.

Yet even greater, how amazing to know that whatever happens within us, around us or to us, God is with us.  His very Presence gives us reason to sing!  His comfort, compassion and consistent love surround us...always.  Sure, our hearts will be full of celebration sometimes while broken other times.  But what incredible peace, hope and joy we have knowing that He holds us and loves us.  If the heavens, earth and mountains have reason to rejoice, I certainly have reason to join them.  Thank You, God, for giving us reason to sing, praise and honor You...through it all.♥~thl

Monday, July 28, 2014

Peaceful Presence...

Dear God~
Thank You for being there...
in deafening silence,
in darkest night,
in deepest pain,
in searing struggle,
in unknown paths,
in unanswered pleas,
in hidden sobs,
in heaviest burdens.

Thank You for being there...
in quiet affirmation,
in bright morning light,
in calming rest,
in welcome peace,
in absolute Presence,
in loving care,
in precious compassion,
in constant strength.

Thank You, God, for holding us close and holding us together as this journey leads us Home to You.♥~thl

"Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom, and Your dominion endures through all generations.  The Lord is faithful to all His promises and loving toward all He has made.  The Lord upholds all those who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down."  Psalm 145: 13>14

Less is more...

It is no secret that I always want to accomplish more: more goals, more writing, more music, more fitness, more projects, more cooking, more studies, more time with family and friends...more living life fully...more fulfillment of responsibilities, etc..

I suppose that's why it is difficult for me to accept that I may need, in some ways, to do less. That is a total contradiction to my usual lifestyle.

As much as I wish to do more for those I love and the One I wish to honor most, He sometimes seems to ask me to do...(gulp)...less. He asks me to be still and know He is God. He asks me to trust Him, even when I don't understand. Actually, He does more much better than I do more. (It's ok to read that last sentence repeatedly. I did...and I wrote it.)

Perhaps we often become so focused on doing more that we lose sight of Who is most important. It's not about my accomplishments, goals, plans or recognition. It is all about His honor, glory and purpose. More of Him...and less of me...is a much better way on this journey Home.♡~thl

"Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen." Ephesians 3: 20>21

Saturday, July 26, 2014

Sky Light...

It happened again tonight.  It seemed to last an exceptionally long time.  Another strong summer storm system passed through our area with frequent lightning, hard rain and roaring thunder.  It was not unusual to see the sky light up vividly...almost as if daylight had returned during the midnight hour.

I began thinking.  If a summer storm reveals so much power and light, how illuminating and vast will the sky become when our Lord returns?  I cannot fathom the brilliance and beauty that will unfold as He appears.  I cannot imagine the praises resounding as He arrives.  I cannot imagine the glory that will be revealed as His Presence is made known. 

My perspective rapidly changes when I read of His return.  May I focus on what matters most.  May I release what doesn't matter.  May I focus on Him above all.  May His Light, Life and Love be my guide on this journey Home.♥~thl

"Then I looked and heard the voice of many angels, numbering thousands upon thousands, and ten thousand times ten thousand.  They encircled the throne and the living creatures and the elders.  In a loud voice they sang:  'Worthy is the Lamb, who was slain, to receive power and wealth and wisdom and strength and honor and glory and praise.'  Then I heard every creature in heaven and on earth and under the earth and on the sea, and all that is in them, singing:  'To Him who sits on the throne and to the Lamb be praise and honor and glory and power, for ever and ever!'"  Revelations 5: 11>13

Friday, July 25, 2014

A Forty-three year lesson...

Several years ago, my Mom gathered childhood pictures and memorabilia for each of the five children. We enjoyed looking at my old pictures, piano recital programs, report cards and other items.  Yet one of my favorite treasures found was my "Certificate of Baptism" from my home church.

Forty-three years ago today, July 25, 1971, I walked into a small creek on a local farm and was baptized by our minister, Richard Corey Besteder.  Although long ago, I can still hear the water brushing against the rocks, birds singing in the trees, grass rustling as the crowd moved closer, and the Church family singing after each baptism.  I remember feeling the rocks under my feet as I walked into the water.  I remember feeling the very, very cool water surrounding me.

Most of all, I remember the excitement I felt as I realized my life was different now.  It was a new beginning.  It was exciting.  It was about Him and no longer about me.  It was hopeful. 

Much has happened since that sunny Sunday afternoon in the Blue Ridge mountains of Virginia.  Much more than I could have ever imagined.  Wonderful opportunities arose that I never expected.  Horrible tragedies and losses also occurred.  I wish I could say that I handled each moment like I should have.  But I didn't.  I wish I could say that I always trusted, followed, focused and prioritized each choice well.  But I didn't.  I wish I could say that I have understood, agreed, accepted and approved of what He allowed or didn't allow.   But I haven't.

Oh, I didn't forget that Sunday afternoon in the creek.  I didn't forget the decision I made from the depths of my heart.  I didn't forget the gratitude I felt for God's love and forgiveness.  I didn't really forget anything about that day...or moment...or choice. Instead I stumbled, fell, questioned, argued, resented and resisted.  

Yet I am learning.  Life doesn't make sense.  It definitely isn't fair.  Answers aren't always available.  Understanding isn't a guaranteed option. And my way...usually isn't the best way. I still fall, question, argue, resent and resist.  But knowing that more of my life is behind me than before me, I have learned to embrace what really matters...to cherish loved ones while I can...to live loving and love living...and to accept that this is not the big picture...yet.

I am grateful as my eyes open each morning, as I walk through the day, as I take each breath, hug each loved one, speak to family and friends, work, write, sing and play.  Many folks no longer can do so. An attitude of gratitude has become an incredible tool on this journey.  Most of all, I am overwhelmed that the same God Who watched my baptism in that creek forty-three years ago...Who knows my failures, fears and frustrations...somehow still loves me...today.  He hasn't given up on me.  He's still working on me.  He still has a plan for this middle-aged Mom whose own plans didn't turn out as hoped. I pray that the rest of my days will be spent learning, loving and living...His way.♥~thl
  
"Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave Himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God."  Ephesians 5: 1>2

Thursday, July 24, 2014

His hope...

It's been one of those weeks, God.  As I listen to the hearts of others, I feel so inadequate.  What should I say when there are no answers?  What should I do as they face tremendous challenges?  I hear their pain.  I see their weariness.  I realize they are grasping for something to hold...someone to care...some place to go...some way to survive the deep blows in their lives. 

How do I respond?  They certainly aren't looking for a sermon...or criticism...or lofty words...or reasons why they shouldn't feel.  They simply need...love, compassion, healing, concern, strength, hope.  They need to know someone cares...right where they are...in the middle of life..and will not leave them.  They need...You.

May I love, listen and live a life that leads them to You, O God.  You hold, hug, heal and give hope to this hurting world.  Thank You!♥~thl

"Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope:  Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail.  They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.  I say to myself, 'The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him.'"  Lamentations 3: 21>24

Praising in the storm...

Storms have come and gone through the day and evening. Another one is marching toward us momentarily. I am always relieved when they are over. Yet there is something about a storm that makes me sense Him even  more. He is powerful. He is Present. He is peace. Knowing He holds me in this storm...and every storm of life...reminds me of His precious, unfailing love. I am grateful. I am amazed. I am never alone.♡~thl
Isaiah 26 : 3

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Always within His reach...

Dear God~
My journey is much like the journey of many.
I have known...
pain that won't leave,
loss that continues,
tears that won't stop,
tears that won't come,
abandonment for no reason,
rejection with no explanation,
scars that slowly fade,
wounds that often bleed,
lonelinesss in crowds,
love that left.

Yet my journey is beautiful like the journey of many.
I know You...
carry me through pain,
comfort me in loss,
dry my falling tears,
see my hidden tears,
promise to never leave me,
forgive instead of reject me,
touch my scars with understanding,
heal my wounds each time,
hold me together in crowds and alone,
will never cease loving me.

You, O God, are faithful and true.
Your love brings hope, peace, joy and strength.
Thank You, God, for being You.♥~thl

"How precious to me are Your thoughts, O God!  How vast is the sum of them!  Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand.  When I awake, I am still with You."  Psalm 139: 17>18

Quiet, unseen...but loved...

I am not Einstein in how I think.
I am not Tchaikovsky in how I play.
I am not Pavarotti in how I sing.
I am not Frost in how I write.
I am not Angelo in how I speak.

Yet God gave birds songs to sing....
He gave the sun light to shine.
He gave the wind direction to move.
He gave roses a way to grow.
He even gave puppies hugs to share.

No, I am not fancy or well known.
My place here is quiet and unseen.
But He loves me and made me.
He guides and changes me.
May His purpose unfold as He leads me closer Home.
I will trust.
I will follow.
I will go.♡~thl
Jeremiah 29: 11>13

Faith in the fog...

While walking the dogs tonight, I noticed fog surrounding us. Although we have lived in our present home for a long time, it is easy to become disoriented when moving around in foggy conditions. Our puppies, however, trusted us enough to guide them in less than perfect circumstances.

I was reminded of life's journey and how we easily lose our way through discouragement, distraction or deception. ...The less we focus on God, the sooner we lose our way. I am so grateful that in the darkest times, God is with us. He holds us and guides us even when we do not understand. His faithfulness and love amaze me each step of this journey Home.♡~thl

"For this God is our God for ever and ever; He will be our guide even to the end." Psalm 48: 14

Accidental blessings...

Thank You, God! Tim and I were just hit by a deer on our way home. Our van will need some work, but we are not injured. Thanking God for holding us, for Tim's great driving skills and for being able to drive home. I will be so glad when we are finally there!!! I am so thankful Tim is ok since it hit his side. I am counting our blessings yet again!♡~thl

Here...or...there?

A favorite analogy I once heard stated that there are two types of people in this world. One type walks into a room with the "here I am" perception. This individual continually draws attention to himself...dominating conversations with his job, life, accomplishments, goals and self-importance.

The other type walks into the room with the "there you are" perception. This individual focuses on others...listening, encouraging, caring and serving them unselfishly.

I am frequently reminded of both types in daily life. Obvious examples are found everywhere. Unfortunately, I sometimes make choices in the "here I am" mentality. Other times, I make "there you are" choices. I pray I learn to consider the hearts and lives of others much more than my own. This world never ceases to need arms reaching out to others...for Him...and to Him.♡~thl
2 Corinthians 1: 3> 4

The One Who knows and cares...

Tonight I am praying for each hurting heart, each wounded soul, each life facing loss and each person searching for hope, healing and His loving arms. I may not have answers but I am praying to the One Who knows each need and holds us each step of this journey. Someone cares. All the time.♡~thl
Proverbs 3: 5>6

The big picture...

As I watch planes flying over our area, I wonder about the passengers and crew. Where are they going? What is happening that made the flight necessary? What are they feeling deep within their hearts?

I also wonder what they think as they look out the windows and see our rolling hills and winding rivers. They probably see it quite differently than we do. They see the big picture. Perhaps our persp...ective becomes so familiar that we are limited in our view.

Maybe life is like that. Maybe the daily routine obstructs a much greater perspective, purpose and plan. Maybe we become discouraged and disappointed because we don't feel our journey is significant.

Yet God sees the big picture. He knows where we are, where we are going and where we have been. Even greater, He knows His amazing love for us includes purpose, hope and peace.

I may never see this world from an airplane window. But I pray I will learn to see life and love through my Heavenly Father's heart.♡~thl

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. " 2 Corinthians 4: 16>18

Words of truth and trust...

It's near and dear to my heart. No matter what happens around me, within me or to me on this journey, I always find strength, hope, peace and comfort in this passage. Tonight my heart holds love and concern for many dear ones who are struggling. Remember...You Are Never Alone And Always Loved. That certainly makes all the difference to me!♡~thl

"He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away. He who was seated on the throne said, 'I am making everything new!' Then He said 'Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.'" Revelation 21: 4>5

Caring presence...

It isn't as important to speak with words as it is to be present with loving compassion. I have known this to be true countless times in my own life. I pray we share it with others on this beautiful, yet challenging, journey.♡~thl

"Comfort, comfort my people, says your God." Isaiah 40: 1

Light at night...

As our daughter drove away this evening, she commented on how bright it was for night time. I explained that the moon is closer to the earth this weekend due to its place in orbit.

I began thinking. It may seem so simple but the reminder is constant. The closer we move to the Light, the more of Him we behold. His reflection also pours over our path more obviously and beautifully.

I don't know... why I miss this truth so often. But as I look into the moonlit sky tonight, I realize that His light makes life's journey much amazing, peaceful and precious...each step of the way.♡~thl

"When I consider Your heavens, the work of Your fingers, the moon and the stars, which You have set in place, what is man that You are mindful of him, the son of man that You care for him? You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honor." Psalm 8: 3> 5

Changing and unchanging...

There's an old adage that states the only constant in life is change. I understand that greatly. Things we thought wouldn't happen...did. Things we thought would happen...didn't. People we considered our friends...weren't. People we never imagined would enter our lives...became near and dear to our hearts. What seemed reliable...wasn't. What seemed unreliable...became trustworthy. Change is inevitable. It is, indeed, constant.

However, much joy comes from knowing that God is Who He says He is. He does what He says He will do. He was, is and shall be the same yesterday, today and forever. I am so grateful that in the middle of life's many changes, He remains the King of Kings, Lord of Lords and The Great I Am. Because He never changes, I find tremendous peace and hope in His continued Presence.♡~thl
Psalm 24: 7> 10

Looking to Him...

I look to Him and find hope.
I look around and find unrest.
I look within and find searching.
I look down and find His steps.
I look up and find His Presence.♡~thl

"'Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet My unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor My covenant of peace be removed,' says the Lord, Who has compassion on you." Isaiah 54: 10

Belief and unbelief...

I believe...
in His love, Presence, existence, hope and power.

I believe...
Him, what He says, does and promises.

I believe......
that this world is not my home. My true Home is with Him.

Yet my heart aches, my spirit struggles and my mind attempts to understand the cruelty, inconsistency and suffering so prevalent here. In a world so desperate for His love, time is wasted needlessly on what doesn't matter..including what causes more pain.

I believe, Dear God. Please help my unbelief.♡~thl

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. " Proverbs 3 : 5 >6

Stormy promises...

Storms marched across our area last night and will continue through today. Yet summertime brings storms and we anticipate their arrival.

It's the unexpected storms that seem most dangerous and relentless. Last November brought surprising tornado conditions to our area, which seemed quite eerie and overwhelming.

Life also brings storms of expected and unexpected natures. We know they will occu...r. Yet some seem to blindside us with absolutely no warning.

Sometimes I cling to hope quite firmly during life's storms. But other storms have a way of leaving me breathless and broken. I didn't see it coming. My hope is shaken. My heart is broken. My breath is taken.

I love Psalm 139, especially verse 7.
"Where can I go from Your Spirit? Where can I flee from Your Presence?"

I am thankful that wherever the storms may toss or entangle me, He is with me. He knows where I am. He holds me. He doesn't abandon me. What a difference that makes as the winds blow, the rain falls and the thunder roars. I am never alone...and I am grateful.♡~thl

The One who made music...

Sometimes I sit at the piano and play as new ideas freely wash over me. Occasionally, I sit at the piano and as much as I wish otherwise, I find myself lacking inspiration, direction or progression. That usually happens when my heart is heavy, my mind is distracted or my life is restless. Ironically, there are other times when words are inadequate but music says it beautifully.

I am deeply grateful that the One Who created music doesn't give up on me, even on my less than successful days. Knowing He loves me provides a constant reason to make music. May it always glorify Him...every day, in every way.♡~thl

"He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord." Psalm 40: 3

Fear on a ladder...

It was a busy day. In fact, it was a very busy day. Actually, it was an exceptionally busy day. My husband and son have been replacing the roof on our storage building the past couple days. While Micah was at work today, however, Tim began working on the roof...alone. I found that unacceptable. So I climbed up the ladder, hammer in hand, and helped replace the roof.

Those who know me well realize that I grew up the daughter of a wonderful carpenter. Hammers, nails, wrenches, paintbrushes and screwdrivers are nothing new to me. Yet this was my first roofing project. I have enjoyed other projects over the years...even learned to adjust my VW clutch while I was in college. But to stand on a ladder and hammer away on a roof...was exciting and even therapeutic...for the most part.

However, I am not a fan of heights. Anything taller than riding horseback is not preferred. But today I found myself holding, hammering, stretching and carrying supplies...on a ladder. Thankfully, I wasn't up too high...but enough to be reminded of my fear of heights.

I began thinking. Life brings lots of fears, too. It doesn't take long to be reminded of them, either. Yet we have a choice. We can be frozen by fear. Or we can face the fear so we may move forward. I have been through both options. Repeatedly.

What peace comes from knowing our Heavenly Father cares, loves and is with us on this journey. Highs and lows, twists and turns, storms and sunshine, He holds us in His hands continually. I am so thankful for His loving Presence. That certainly makes each step, (even those on a ladder), much more peaceful.♡~thl

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41: 10

Headed Home...but not alone...

On stormy days,
On days of sun,
In wintry months,
When darkness comes,
On paths of rock
Or soft, green grass,
From summer's breeze ...
Or biting chill,
I know each step I take
Is not alone
For You are present,
Leading me Home.♡~thl

"I am confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." Psalm 27: 13>14
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I believe...

I believe in You, O God.
I also believe You.
You are ever-present and all knowing.
You hear us, hold us and heal us.
You know us best and love us most.
As decisions arise along this path,
I look to You. I trust You. I will follow You.♡~thl

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13

Going to the dogs...

It was a simple yet precious sight.
My heart was warmed as I watched in amazement and tears.
It had not been an easy day for "our boys" or me. None of us felt great.
When I kissed them goodnight and asked them to sleep,
Beethoven and Boomer stretched out on their favorite spots...with their front paws touching one another.
 No wrestling. No barking. No competition. Just looking out for each other.
Sometimes, I believe we can learn much by "going to the dogs."♡~thl

"And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds." Hebrews 10: 23

Follow in trust...

I don't know what tomorrow brings.
Nor do I know about today.
I know that I am never alone
And that I am in His hand.
What lies ahead on this path,
I shall face in His embrace.
For now, I follow and trust His love.
He knows. He cares. He leads.♡~thl
Jeremiah 29: 11> 13

Simple blessings...

How precious are the simple things...
A day of celebration with family,
A morning call from a friend,
Playing with our puppies,
Kindness from loved ones,
Feeling like my life matters.
Thank You, God, for shining through the simple things.
For they are certainly blessings from You.♡~thl
1 Thessalonians 3:12

Looking above...

Lord, I look to You...
for direction on this journey,
for guidance in this life,
for answers to the questions held deep within my heart,
for peace in all decisions,
for hope in what will be,
Lord, I pray You will direct my path
as Your will and love I seek.♡~thl
Isaiah 26: 3

Another day with Him...

The day was long.
The night is still.
My mind reflects.
My heart renews.
More breaths taken.
More heartbeats given.
Thank You, God,
For another day with You.♡~thl
Isaiah 26: 3