Perhaps it was the extra demands of the past few months. Maybe it involved ongoing concerns for loved ones in our lives. Quite possibly, it has been the recent change of schedules, situations and circumstances. Whatever the reason, my soul became thirsty. My heart became weary. My mind worked overtime. My body became exhausted.
I often call it the proverbial brick wall we hit after months of planning, running, shopping, cooking, working and attending. We find ourselves spent. Although not a fan of winter, I sometimes look forward to the first months of the year because I know the pace will finally slow down. I will catch my breath. I will find order once more. I will...just maybe...rest.
Oh, how I love the celebrations of the past few months. Yet I often feel like I am on a runaway train just waiting to crash. I try to invent new methods to stay ahead so I will not become overwhelmed. It happens anyway.
As much as I love writing, I have felt the drought of energy, perspective and availability. Creativity was drained. Consistency was distracted. Contentment was dampened. Of course, I continued writing. But something was missing.
Today, I found myself asking God what I should do to renew my focus and function. Should I take a break? Should I give it up permanently? Should I brainstorm, although that idea was not my favorite at the moment? Should I focus more on my music or other goals and put writing on the back burner for awhile? Should I.....? What was that, Lord? Did You say what I think You said? Yes...I rather enjoy silence. Being somewhat of an introvert, I refuel in stillness. But what about...? You will? Certainly, Lord...I will simply listen...and learn...from You.
Moments later, as I pursued the daily routine, I heard Him. Maybe not audibly...but definitely authentically. As I allowed my mind to relax, He allowed me to hear Him. He will supply my every need...physically, emotionally, spiritually, financially, mentally...and even creatively. I simply need to listen to...lean on...and learn from...Him.
In my weakest, most exhausted and unfocused state, He is faithful. I need to be still...and let Him love me...lead me...and lift me into His precious arms. Then I shall hear Him softly ask, and receive, my complete surrender...and I will be renewed once more.♥~thl
"I waited patiently for the Lord; He turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; He set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord." Psalm 40: 1>3
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