God is fully aware, of course, but today I shared with someone that yesterday's post/blog entry was the last I would write for awhile. It's been a long, challenging winter and my body, mind, soul and spirit are weary on every level.
Yet as I anticipated a wonderful sigh of relief, I felt an unexpected stirring in my heart. "Nooooo....no way...I am not writing anything else for a long time. I have nothing left to give. My ideas are dwindling. I am tired, ineffective and spent. No...More...Writing. Maybe no more singing, playing, planning or anything else for awhile, either. I need to walk away indefinitely." My thoughts continued a little longer.
Then I realized how many times I had referred to how I felt...what I thought...what I decided...what I evaluated...and what was best for me. Somehow, I had forgotten that none of this depends on me anyway. It's about Him. Who am I to tell Him what I will or will not do? And about that weariness...it's remains very true. Maybe that's a reminder that whatever He wants me to do or say, He will provide strength, stamina and substance if I will lean on Him more.
So...here I am writing again. Well...here I am typing again. It is my prayer that He will be honored more than ever before. After all...He knows His plan and purpose much better than I do. I am simply and significantly surrendering my countless incapabilities to God Who specializes in the impossible.♥~thl
"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6: 33>34
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