Sometimes I really wrestle with God. I always hoped that by this point in my life, I would have accomplished so much more: more education, more degrees, more address changes, more goals met, more memories made, more trips taken, more this and more that. I thought the more I accomplished, the more I could offer Him.
Then I remember. I am not living this life for myself. I am living for Him. If that means His direction is different, I will go there. If that means His purpose is different, my purpose will change. If that means His view of me serving Him differs from what I thought I would do, well...that's what He will have from me.
I never thought I was "enough" for Him until I accomplished more to offer Him. But I am learning that what God really wants more of from me isn't my accomplishments. It's my heart, my life, my total surrender...all of me. Maybe it's only in complete surrender that He will accomplish what He designed me to do anyway.
So, here I am "unaccomplished" but totally depending on Him. It may be in small or significant ways...spoken or silent ways...my dreams or His direction. Whatever He calls me to do, or not do, I know it's all about Him. Above all. Always. Completely.♥~thl
"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving." Colossians 3: 23>24
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