I am His. He is mine.

"May you lean back into the arms of the Lord today. May you find rest in knowing that you are His and He is yours. May His strength reassure you; may His nearness quiet you; may His mercies bring you every consolation and peace." (Roy Lessin)

It's a lesson long overdue.  I have always been a driven person and find satisfaction in "getting things done."  I often find myself multi-tasking half a dozen things at one time without even thinking about it.  Each morning, I run a mental list of what needs to be done.  Each night, before I fall asleep, (IF I fall asleep), I evaluate what was completed and what needs to be addressed tomorrow.

Then...life happens.  Illnesses, tragedies, disease, unexpected events, disappointments...and my lists...and goals...are unmet.  I wonder...what now?  Who am I without getting things accomplished?

My life-long dreams and goals were all set.  I graduated from college with three majors and one minor, lacking only one hour of a second minor.  I would stay home with the children since we have no family closeby.  Meanwhile, I would take online courses.  Once they began college, I would resume my Master's degree goal and a career in Crisis/Trauma Counseling.  One child has graduated from college.  Another remains in college and may pursue grad degrees immediately after graduation.  My parents are aging and need me to travel home frequently.  Other situations also require my focus and involvement.

Again, my plans are changing.  I sometimes wonder...what now?  Who am I without accomplishing my goals so I can serve Him more effectively?

Then I am reminded...I am His child....His daughter...living this life for Him...not for me.  I live, breathe, serve and wait on Him.  He created me. He gave me life.  He has placed me in a place, time, season and situation that I do not understand...but He does.  His plans and purpose for my life far exceed my own dreams and goals. 

Now when I feel lost, unsuccessful, weary, side-tracked, frustrated with my lack of accomplishments and overwhelmed with life's detours, I remember that I rest in His arms, as His child, seeking His plan and embracing His peace as He leads me Home...one season, one chapter, one sentence at a time.  It is not about me.  It is all about Him, my precious, faithful Audience of One.  I am His.  He is mine.  Now being driven doesn't mean pursuing my dreams...but allowing Him to lead me on. ♥~thl